Ineffable (Yeah, Of Course This Is About Girls)

[Verse 1]

When the fuck did I become a love poet?

I'm usually in the mood to write for the slow it down,

light the candles, let the feelings come out

and now it's all I think about and it's not like I

really hate it. I got it in spades kid, the basic

placement of putting words in for the plays of

stand ins trying to convince the leading maiden

that in fact you are not playin' and this isn't maybe

but this is what you're really made of

I hail from broken streets down the beats of that

th-thump, th-thump sweet heart rap

That kind of I can twist it up to make it into a joke

so you don't feel bad kind of rap. You know about that?

I know all about that

From jester to joker to test her and no sirs

That break up really did a number on me if you look closer

I'm not a poser or a poster boy for

the romantic ploy with grand gestures like quotas

More of the I've got things to say like

snow is all over Minnesota

And It's always raining from my hometown

I guess that's the way I like it now

From skipping into puddles and

hoping I can use an umbrella so we

can cuddle under that rain is what I hope now

I'm not feeling broke now, I'm just more aware of it

And I still feel dope but it's with the shit I got pair it with

From dates that seem great that lead to dead ends

To good thoughts and intentions that instead blend

with all of my thoughts making me feel like that paranoid parrot

I'm not embarrassed.

But I do lie often.

The options of softness are wearing down

and I choose it so much that's it's like my defaulted

So many faults kid. I feel insulted

Too many waltzes that I rocked solo

So maybe tonight I better last call it.

Where did I leave my wallet? Oh no.

[Breakdown]

Dear god, I wish I could sing for you

but we both know that isn't gonna come true

Yes, I'm feeling blue, but what's a girl to do?

Keep doing what you do and we all fall for you

And now I wish I could carry a tune

But spend the night with me and I'll carry the moon

I'll walk through monsoons and other

of those cliche poetic weather patterns just for you

And I wish I could sing for you

I wish I could sing for you but

I really don't know how to do

I really, really, really, don't know how to

I wish I could just sing to you

make something pretty be sung for you

but I don't really know how to do that

so instead I just have to say it in this... kind of rap

[Outro]

Falling for someone.

is a culmination

of everything I could be afraid of. 

Falling already is unsettling, but when

you start to fall for someone, you start

to think you have superpowers. As if gravity

does not effect you and you’ve been granted

the gift of flight! But sooner or later, you’ll hit

the bottom. Unless you grab on tight. And I

seem to gravitiate towards people who 

have hands stretched out like tree branches,

sturdy, leafy, places I can spend

my summer days.

But the further I fall, the more I have

to confront my other fears. When you

point your finger at me, accusations flying

quicker than darts with tips pointed like

surgeon’s scalpels, all I can ever do

is just try to catch the statements through

my teeth and not let any of my own fly out.

And you’ll remind me that I can’t impress

you every second of the day and that more

often or not, I’ll just be an ordinary human, which

is scary. Because who ever wanted to be in 

love with a normal person? So I start

evaluating my life and my past and my future,

how I’ve been living and how I might die and

all of a sudden every specter from the corners

of the room start to surround my view every time

you ask me what’s wrong and I can’t formulate

words but only images and of course I’ll just say:

nothing.

Just stay with me.