Swerve

[Chorus]
Never let them tell you how to feel
Never let them tell you what is real
You have to figure that with your own nerves
You see an obstacle? Homie I just
Swerve.

[Verse 1]
I've had opportunity handed and results been demanded
Stayed way solid and never took it all for granite
Because the man is back up on his grind right in time
Before life was gonna hit em like he does with the rhymes
I'm at a different kind of place I've never been before
Opened up some new doors and closed a few more
I feel like I'm growing up but I'm always looking down
Too shy to really speak my mind so this is my honest sound
I ain't got another place to shout it all out raw
Scrambled up and cracked jagged like the edge of a saw
But what do I see? And what do I even know?
I'll still be a kid. Getting hashtagged is my green light to go
Updated the nerve. Installed some new patches
The hardware was always there but cleaned up to match it
You ever feel like getting reinvented and starting new?
I'm recycling the old pages. Back then I said it true
So now I'm just saying it a little more refined
A little more polished. Gander into my diamond mind
A girl's best friend. You know what it is
You stay for good when it started as just a visit
Even if I say something really specific on this track
Just bookmark it for the future so you can look back
Because every single song is a little note in my journal
In general this kernel of truth are my stripes and I earned them
Hit them in a major way. Comfort for the hater's day
Even in private I am deeper than Crater Lake
My pen is mightier than a sword or a gun
I hail from the land of bridges and a rainy sun, um
What more do I say? I'm forever right here
18 eternal within these sound bytes that you hear
Immortalized forever within my own writing
I've made a room for loving and an armory for fighting
This is my year. Go ahead and check my receipt
I'll build bridges of faith and the others will just have to leap
I'm not going for revenge. Just proving it my way
At the end of the day they will all say:

Nothing at all. Just see the lock jaws
Just see the jaws drop as the cameras flash my awe
I've lived romantically. Never shallow and pedantically
Jay turning into Gatsby. I am the man that I aim to be

[Chorus]
Never let them tell you how to feel
Never let them tell you what is real
You have to figure that with your own nerves
You see an obstacle? Homie I just
Swerve.

[Verse 2]
If my fans line up for me, what do they really want?
A little bit of comedy or some past tragedies and haunts?
Will I make it in rapping or in some other fields?
Is poetry my deal or is writing what is real?
Will Smith Format: rapper turn to actor?
Will being Asian determine a bigger factor
than I anticipated or even really thought of?
For now I'm feeling the swagger of riding shotgun
Elementary, to middle and I got real high
Residing at the collegiate level. Learning how to fly
Cooking my own meals, paying my own bills
My trusty quill and my inkwell is never still
What will life become? This verse is all uncertainty
I take a lot of things too deep and too personally
They resurface back up within stanzas and verses
Put it on the page and then I rehearse it
Recite every pain and memorize all my woes
Turn them into poems and morph them into flow
Disguise is in the costume of novels and characters
Everything's an abstract of me. I've learned to cherish her
And to appreciate him. To revel and bask
To take off my mask and to put down the flask
Getting stronger every single day when I awaken
Visibly cemented and my spirits never shaken
Stirred a bit loopy. A touch of insanity
A dash of vanity and batch of randomly
Assorted ingredients could be my real recipe
Sweeter than Devil's food and just as heavenly

A Page From A Journal

[Verse 1]
I've got holes in my socks that are inside my high tops
That ought to be filled by my heels and some other thoughts
I still pass to buy a youth pass for the buses that take me places
Look at Mr. Dodecahedron: 12 different faces
It takes too long to check each and every one of them
And I'm already running late for my next class again
I fall in love every time I rush by
I'm sprinting through an orchard, you're the apple of my eye
You make me blush and look down embarrassed at my textbook
King of my castle but closed in by my left side rook
So if I ever get brave enough to step to the side
Just please sure to bring band-aids for my wounded pride

[Chorus] x2
A regular guy, a regular guy
The scariest thing to admit now.
Look straight in my eye
You are a normal guy.
And that's just about it. Wow.

[Verse 2]
I wasn't ever good at talking with pretty girls
They make my heart beat too quickly and for this entire world
To go even faster will make my head spin. Dizzy
With the thoughts of getting a date in. It's all too risky
Now she says I am a nice guy and one of a kind
But I am just someone whose company she doesn't really mind
If we were a book, I'm the cover damaged and bent
Protecting you, who makes me happy, my table of content
I want to lie down with you and kiss your neck
Mr. Right Now or leftovers? I know you'll choose correct
So what do you really want? I'm not sure what will really fly
I've got a paper airplane or a foam glider for you and I

[Chorus] x2
A regular guy, a regular guy
The scariest thing to admit now.
Look straight in my eye
You are a normal guy.
And that's just about it. Wow

[Verse 3]
I don't think I'm special or that much of a professional
I could be your confessional Ms. Intellectual
I'm not playing any games, I'm all of out of change
Just sick with ODD, you can ask Dr. Strange
What can I even handle if I flip flop like sandals?
I've got more issues than multiple comic book panels
But maybe what I'm saying here is that I know who I am
And you won't have to worry about me becoming another man
Quite skinny with a head heavy of optimism
I've got courage and power. Could you help with wisdom?
So look at this guy:
My heart is pumping what if through my veins. I know you should at least try
with


A regular guy, a regular guy
You are really making my heart pound
Look straight in my eye
You're so pretty, oh my.
Where do I even start? Wow

Out of Place

[Verse 1]
Out of my mind, out of my time
Rewind the clocks just because I'm
About to lose it a little more severley
Purely for the notion and do it twice just to see me
Double take, hustle cake, struggling bakery
Causing mayhem like Durden did to catering
Reading books like the last man on Earth
Every Sunday put it all on the line to see what I'm worth
This is me right here, I'm not left behind
Ambidextrous ambition that can only be mine
Arduous unique to my entire standing
Time is an angry boss whom is way too demanding
Not concerned with the silver, throw away the bronze
What is even gold? All I need is the dawn
Maybe the glitter in your eyes, wait let me backtrack
You're a real cool cat and I'm caught in a rattrap?
Things are real confusing, who is even here?
I'm looking at someone else in the mirror
My life is boiled down into cliches
But take a look at my face and you think things are peachy!
What do you even see? Honestly?
A kid who's outlived his use? Obsolete
Can I reset this game if things go horrifically?
Uh oh is my native language which I speak prolifically

[CHORUS] x2
First is the worst
An extra second is the best
Third is the one with the treasure chest
Then where does fourth land in this mess?

[Verse 2]
Sharpie tattoos like crumpled grocery lists
I used to have people ask "What is this?"
But hardly do people take the time to ask what it is
I used to really be but now I just exist
I'm not that depressed, nothing really happened
Nothing out of the ordinary or too awful to imagine
I'm just a normal kid, and that scares me
I'm not individually cool or anything. I'm just barely
Messed up and broken in some weird way
Like a 20 minute flight delay
A little inconvenient, but you don't really care
You never really think "Oh goodness, what happened out there?"
No one is very curious, no one ever asks
No one sees my face, they just think it's my mask
But it's really my fault, I wore it on the first day of school
As a tool, as a guise of "Cool"
I could just open up and make one more connection
But in the first place it doesn't take a second
It's always in that third or fourth time we can talk
And by that time I've struck out or I walked